Remember that time in the apartments, when u squirted Water all over me, so i got pissed n dumped a whole huge cup on ur head and u got pissed and stormed out, and squealed ur tires in the parking lot, came back about 10 minutes later with that funny ass grin on ur face, laughin about it all, told me you threw my cd in the middle of the street...and then laughed about it said u wernt really mad at me, and gave me my cd back...LOL...I'll Never forget that shit, and that big smile that was constantly on ur face, you were always so happy, and you were always making everyone laugh. We're all Gonna Miss You. R.I.P
Love Always,
Amanda Marie
passPLEASE HELP ME PASS MY POTATO AND SEE WHERE HE GOES!!!!
http://www.meriter.com/babymail/baby_display2.asp?ID=9631tg&go.x=8&go.y=10
THATS MY NEW NEPHEW!!!...YAY FOR ME IM A AUNTIE! LOOK HOW BIG HE IS!
| Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp |
 What You Call Him: Papito Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy |
nowso i signed up on Xanga.com and i cant find a single one of my friends that have it so well...if u have it...leave me some reviews n stuff..or watever...yup yup...
ok so, blah im just gonna let it all out in my blog, which is usually not like me because this is way way more on the personal side of everything else...but ok, i cut, and i hate it...i stopped for a while, but then i started, and im sick of it, i wanna stop, but its hard, its like an addiction, it makes me numb, its like watching all my pain run out of my body, and for a while, i feel better, numb, i feel far away...but still, what good is it doing me, what good does it do anybody?...its like a drug, yeah it makes u feel alright for a while, but it doesnt change anything, for the most part, it only makes it worse, but u dont see that, because u just keep doing it, because u dont wanna admit it...All it leaves me with is more pain,and more ugly ass scars on my wrists and everywhere else ive cut, and im ashamed...i dont think having no other way to cope with ur problems other than cutting is anything to be proud of, do you? I used to do alotta drugs, and thats another thing im not proud of, thats yet another regret i have, u hear people always tell u not to do drugs, they'll ruin your life...blah blah, but do u ever listen?..of corse not, and then u sit here like me years later and wish you would have listened...well atleast my life isnt 100% fucked up, not yet anyways..and i wanna fix that...i wanna stop cutting, but believe me its hard...and i hate all those people out there that cut, with no reason at all but because they want and need attention, thats not something to be proud of either, if u want attention that bad, go run around ur house naked..dont fuckin cut urself, dont be stupid. So well, once again, i quit doing drugs, and im proud of that..but now i wanna quit cutting, but it almost seems harder than quitting doing drugs, to me it is anyways, well maybe not harder, but just as hard. And well, im not one to break promises, specially to people i care alot about...so i wrote kyle, and i told him, i mean he already knew i cut, but i told him i stopped, cuz i did, but i never told him i started again...well, i figure if i promised him that i would try my hardest, and stop cutting, that well..that would make me fight my urges...make me truly try my hardest to stop...it gives me no choice really, i dont break promises..so this is just another promise im not going to break, so i hafta stop...in fact i promise the same thing to everyone i know that is important to me, all those people that might actually care about me...that will make me work even harder at it. so yeah, i think thats all i hafta say...goodnight
